In Hopeless, Sky left no secret unearthed, no feeling unshared, and no memory forgotten, but Holder’s past remained a mystery.
Still haunted by the little girl he let walk away, Holder has spent his entire life searching for her in an attempt to finally rid himself of the crushing guilt he has felt for years. But he could not have anticipated that the moment they reconnect, even greater remorse would overwhelm him…
Sometimes in life, if we wish to move forward, we must first dig deep into our past and make amends. In Losing Hope, bestselling author Colleen Hoover reveals what was going on inside Holder’s head during all those hopeless moments—and whether he can gain the peace he desperately needs.
Excerpt :
taken from Colleen Hoovers Webpage -
“Yo, flipdick. We on for tonight?” Daniel says, walking up to my locker.
The last thing I feel like doing tonight is going out. I know Daniel would probably get my mind off her with all the crazy shit that comes out of his mouth, but I don’t really want to get my mind off her. I haven’t spoken to her since Monday and the only thing that sounds appealing besides being with her is wallowing alone in self-pity.
“Maybe tomorrow. I don’t really feel like doing anything tonight.”
Daniel leans his elbow into the locker and he lowers his head, leaning toward me. “You’re really being a mangina,” he says. “You didn’t even date the chick. Get the fuck over it and…” Daniel glances over my shoulder without finishing the sentence. “What the hell is your problem, powder puff?” He’s speaking to someone now standing behind me. The way he says it can only mean it’s Grayson. Fearing I’m about to get sucker punched from behind, I spin around.
It’s not Grayson.
Breckin is facing me and he doesn’t look very pleased about it.
“Hey,” I say.
“I need to talk to you,” he says. I know he wants to talk about Sky and I really don’t want to talk about Sky. Not to Breckin, not to Daniel, not even to Sky. No one understands anything about anything and frankly, it’s nobody’s business.
“Sorry, Breckin. I’m not really in the mood to talk about her.”
Breckin takes a quick step forward and I take a quick step back because I wasn’t expecting him to rush me like he just did. My back is against the locker and Daniel is laughing. Probably because Breckin is a good fifty pounds lighter than me and several inches shorter and he’s wondering why the hell I haven’t laid Breckin on his ass yet. But that doesn’t stop Breckin from moving in even closer to get right in my face.
“I don’t really give a shit what kind of mood you’re in, because I’m in a pretty shitty mood myself, Holder. You aren’t the one having to pick up all the shattered pieces of Sky this week. I don’t know what the hell happened in the cafeteria Monday, but it was enough to show me that I don’t like you. I don’t like you one damn bit and I have no idea what Sky sees in you because what you did to her? How you led her on for days and then just walked away like she was a waste of your time?” Breckin shakes his head, still fuming. He drops his eyes down to my arm. Down to the tattoo. “I feel sorry for you,” he sighs. He inhales a calming breath and slowly looks back up at me. “I feel sorry for you, because people like her don’t come along more than once. She deserves someone who realizes that. Someone who appreciates her. Someone who would never just…” he shakes his head, looking at me disappointedly. “Someone who would never crush her hope and then just walk away.”
Breckin backs up a step when he’s finished and Daniel gives me the look. The look that indicates he’s ready to start one of his fights. Before I even have the chance to tell Daniel to refrain, he begins to lunge forward toward Breckin. I quickly step in between them and shove Daniel against the locker with my arm, keeping it pressed against his chest. “Don’t,” I say, holding Daniel back.
“Let him hit me,” Breckin says loudly from behind me. “Or better yet, why don’tyou just do it, Holder? You proved to her on Monday what a badass you are. Have at it!”
I release Daniel and turn around to face Breckin. The last thing I want to do is hit him. Why would I hit him when everything he just said to me was the absolute truth? He’s pissed at me because of how I treated Sky. He’s pissed and he’s protecting her and I have no idea how to tell him how much it means to me to know she has him.
I turn around and open my locker, then grab my backpack and car keys. Daniel is watching me closely, wondering why I’m not kicking Breckin’s ass right now. I face Breckin again and he’s eyeing me with just as much confusion as Daniel. I begin to walk away, but pause when I’m shoulder to shoulder with Breckin. “I’m glad she has you, Breckin.”
He doesn’t respond. I pull my backpack onto my shoulder and walk away.
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Colleen Hoover |
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Jen's Review My rating: 5 of 5 stars
Awe - and Dean Holder steels my heart again :)
This book was so different - It's been awhile since I read Hopeless - and I'm glad for that. I knew which bits and pieces were re-told in Holder's POV that were the same in Hopeless, but this book has so much more -
The only thing I remember differently - the best first kiss that wasn't a kiss - I remember reading in from Sky's POV and feeling the tingles along with her, but reading it from Holder's POV .... not so much - it was still hot - just goes to show the difference between reading books in a girls POV and a guys POV I guess :)
Holder has so much guilt and emotions welling up in his lifetime - the story starts out the day before his twin sister Les dies - and after he finds her, the guilt just gets that much stronger.
He goes on in his daily life - I really liked the letters he wrote to Less, it was able to give us a little feedback on his feelings that were there without going through each scene from hopeless all over again. And there was a lot more - Daniel - Cracks me up - I totally fell in love with him during the big cafeteria confrontation :)
But when Holder screws up (or did he really? I felt it was justified :) ) He goes off for a year, just to come back to more rumors and gossip. He's trying hard to get by day to day without letting things get to him.
When he decides to make his mom dinner in order to soften the upcoming news he has for her... when he goes to the supermarket for the ingredients.... that's where he see's her... the one person he had given up looking for...
And that's where it starts - Holders POV of Hopeless - but everything isn't the same - the thoughts Holder has are so different that what you would have expected while reading Hopeless - we all know how this story is going to end, because we all know what happened in Hopeless - but the way Holder handles each and every bit of news just strikes your heart a little -
Great story - will be keeping this series on my favorites shelf where I keep all of Colleen Hoover's books - she's officially my "favorites" author - since each book I've read of hers ends up there :)
Juls Review My rating: 5 of 5 stars
I thought, how can Colleen outdo herself after writing Hopeless and
can she even do such a thing? Yes and YES! You thought Ms Hoover
broke your heart with the heart wrenching story of children who were so
lost with a disappearance of one but in Losing Hope your sorrow deepens
with the revelations that shattered the lives of a family.
Holder
is a boy who has lost his other half and cant find peace with this
great loss. But time is a great healer. When Holder comes back home
after being away for a year he meets a girl that cant be his Hope. But
this girl has her eyes and her smile. A smile that knocks him off his
feet!
Hopeless
was Sky's POV but in Losing Hope Holder tells his side of the story.
What I loved most about this story was the battle Holder went through
when he was sure that he found Hope. Can he allow the chaos to enter
this fragile girl's life or will he just go on like no is the wiser?
The turmoil that wars within him is devastating but his mind is set and
he will do what needs to be done regardless of the outcome.
What a fantastic read! Holder is very loyal and brave character and I'm so glad Hope had him on his side to help fight for her. I highly recommend this to all readers!!
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