Saturday, March 16, 2013

Tainted Love by Erin Cawood - Is Writing A Form of Personal Therapy?


Tainted Love: The Faith McKenzie Story

Tainted Love: The Faith McKenzie Story
by Erin Cawood


For anyone in a relationship, the words 'we need to talk' can only mean one thing. In the last twenty-two years, the McKenzies have been through it, survived it, learned by it, and grown stronger from it, because life didn't stop for breath when they needed it. Amongst the tears and the tragedies, the hopes and happiness, they've built something amazing: a happy family, a luxury lifestyle and a booming empire. Don't they deserve to have it all? 

But for the perfect wife, those four sinister words mean something entirely different. They're a summons into a private world where what happens behind closed doors stays behind closed doors. 

Faith has no doubt in Calvin's undying love for her. It's what kept her sane in the darkest hours. If only she could figure out what it is she does wrong... because it’s rapidly becoming apparent their tainted love is running out of time.


Erin Cawood
Erin Cawood 

Erin Cawood –
 Is Writing A Form of Personal Therapy?

For me, writing is a form a therapy. I suffer from chronic daily migraine with aura. It’s a long term medical condition for which there is no cure. My symptoms include light sensitivity usually natural light, sound sensitivity, a reduced sensation down my entire right side, nausea, dizziness, visual disturbances, the sensation that my brain has tilted on its axis, reduced coordination in my right side and I have a permanent tremor in my right arm and leg. I take three different forms of medication to keep the symptoms under control and they don’t always work. What does work…? Escapism.

There are many people who don’t understand that migraine is not a headache. It’s a debilitating condition that puts your life on hold and yes there are days when I’m just too sick to even use a computer. But then there are days when I’m not sick enough to stay in bed but am only in pain when the auras are aggravated by natural light or noise or if I do too much I lose the sensation in my right side. These are the days when I can’t go outside or watch television because I can’t cope with the noise and I can’t walk around because I have weakness in my limbs.

So instead I take myself off into my own private Narnia. A world I’ve created in my mind. I block out all of the external factors that cause pain and I just float away.

I go to a place where migraines don’t exist, to a place where I have to focus on someone else thoughts and feelings, their actions and reactions, what they said and what they didn’t say, where they are and what they’re doing. I put myself in their shoes, absorb the details in their surroundings, take the time to feel each of the emotions they feel, and I record everything through my finger tips.

I get lost and I’m gone for hours and some days I’ll take my note pad and a pencil, because it’s easier to write with pencil than it is with pen on these days – In fact, the weakness can be so severe in my right hand sometimes that I’ve had to learn to write with my left hand – But I’ll go back to bed and avoid the computer altogether.

Being able to write on these days has saved me from the insanity of boredom. And sometimes, I have to keep free myself from this insanity and be entertained for weeks on end. So I go deeper. I get more in-depth. I think more about motivations and ask more questions about a character desires or needs. I sometimes chuck them in situations they’d never find themselves in just to learn how they’d react, just because I can. And just because I can I’m evil, very, very evil. It depends on my mood. But I guarantee you most of the time I enjoy every second of it!

So for me, writing is a form of therapy, I use it every day to cope with a situation I cannot change and in coping with a medical condition that has no cure I practice and improve my craft every single day.



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Genre – Women’s Fiction / Contemporary Romance
Rating – PG13
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2 comments:

Erin Cawood said...

Thanks for the feature!

Teena in Toronto said...

I enjoyed this book.

http://www.teenaintoronto.com/2013/04/book-tainted-love-2012-erin-cawood.html